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The Ravin’ (Guarantor), by Sternbut Fehr

Ever wonder what Edgar Allan Poe’s classic The Raven might have looked like if penned by a midlevel corporate associate working at Christmas? Thanks to this incredible piece by Sternbut Fehr, wonder no more.

THE RAVIN’ (Guarantor)
by Sternbut Fehr

Once upon a midnight dreary, all alone (except for Siri),
I sat slumped in Aeron hell and suffered my life in the law.
While I clicked and scrolled, unhappy, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of someone slowly rapping, rapping at my office door.
“’Tis the janitor,” I muttered, “tapping at my office door –
Likely here to clean the floor.”

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in my third December,
I was adding a board member to some charter (pointless chore).
Years of school and debt had brought me to this zenith of ungodly
Slog for clients – stop me, stop me if I’m being a bore –
But law school was so costly you’ll forgive me if I’m sore –
Seemed so right after Peace Corps.

So I sat there blindly staring at the rude unsightly glaring
Of my dual screens, despairing when this knock came at my door.
“Come,” I muttered, “you may enter, I am surely no dissenter,”
My Aeron swiveled on its center as I pushed across the floor –
Swiveled gently on its center, gliding smooth across the floor –
Turning just to face the door.

Though I had anticipated that a cleaner therein waited,
I was promptly now deflated as I looked upon the door.
Oh how quickly I regretted he whose entry I abetted,
For before me silhouetted stood a partner in my door.
A grim and blank-eyed partner I tried daily to ignore.
One I hoped not to work for.

As his gaze began to harden, “Sir,” I said, “I beg your pardon,
I was penning legal jargon and the terms that it stood for.”
Working late and churning, clocking, I had hardly heard him knocking.
Though my aim was hardly mocking, I sought to create rapport:
“I am well beyond espresso, I’d prefer a liquor store.”
Just a joke – and nothing more.

In he strode, his eyes fixed level, hardened face that of a devil,
Business casual disheveled like some legal prince of lore.
True-life winner of the rat-race, a millionaire in my workspace,
No emotion on his old face – seemed my jest would be ignored –
How I puzzled at this titan, wondered what he’d come here for.
Quoth the partner: “Guarantor.”

For a moment I sat waiting unsure what he was relating,
Or if he was simply stating some first word to underscore
A longer thought – but no question came to follow his suggestion
Or clarify his confession – that single word begat no more!
That one lone legal term, it seemed, was all he had in store –
Which I had no answer for.

“Sir,” I started, “I am eager as a bright-eyed little leaguer,
Though my resources are meager I will do what you ask for,
Forgive me for intervening but I’m unsure of your meaning,
I’m incapable of dreaming what you mean by ‘Guarantor.’
Is it client, task, or project? Legal theory to explore?
Please sir, may I have some more?”

Never once my gaze engaging, the partner stood mute and waging
Silent warfare on me, gauging as I struggled to restore
Some semblance of normal rhythm, to repair this growing schism
Without phony cronyism like many had tried before,
Other junior lawyers licked his bootheels, to be sure,
But I wouldn’t, that I swore.

Still he stood there, neither speaking, clarifying, nor critiquing,
As I sat still, slowly freaking out, a prisoner of war,
A grim train of fears beset me: Had I failed as a draftee?
Had I butchered up some unseen doc or bungled my décor?
But try as I might I could not read what his intentions were
In saying only “guarantor.”

And why had I made this blunder, casting my own ship asunder
Dashing it to pieces on the rocks by law school’s evil door?
If I had a time machine I’d travel back and intervene,
Saying “what do you hope to glean? Toss that letter on the floor!
Do not go to law school boy, I beg you, I implore –
Find some other guarantor.”

Guarantor – it conjured finance: Greedy bankers in a rain dance
Slaving all night long in a trance, earning more and more and more.
Just one bonus as a banker would obliterate this canker,
This ungodly fat sea-anchor called a School Loan – filthy whore
Let me do her for three years and rode me then for evermore,
Left me with a saddle sore.

Suddenly a calm possessed me: As if this fool could upset me!
Greyed and hollow from the years he billed and billed and billed some more.
“Fossil!” I cried, “Thing of evil! Fossil still, from times medieval!
Take your stinking Nicorette and go back up to your own floor!”
Here I halted – staring, waiting, knowing I was now done for.
Quoth the partner: “Guarantor.”

Spent, I slumped back now to ponder, and allowed my mind to wander
To my youthful promise squandered, with this night to underscore.
I’ll give notice here tomorrow, surely not with any sorrow
Call recruiters back for once and take a month off to restore –  
Or is every law firm just another figure in my door?
(Of this we need no guarantor.)

And that partner still is standing, still is standing, still is standing
On that well-worn carpet landing just inside my office door.
Silhouetted by fluorescents, stoic in his convalescence
Ailed by unseen and incessant ills from his life in the law.
What he meant by his strange statement I’ve resigned now to ignore.
Quoth this author: Nevermore.

© 2014 by Sternbut Fehr.

Editors’ note 5/8/2014: Due to the early popularity of this poem, we’re gauging interest for #guarantor themed T-shirts. E-mail us at info@lawpoetry.com for suggestions or to join the list.